Hello Humans.
Partially an end of this week. A week just passed off smoothly. Time to do some updated to my blog. Initially, this photo above was tagged by one of my Primary schoolmate. Just a rough introduction. It was taken on year 2002, when I was Primary 3. Hahaha, that was when I'm young and retarded. That was when I'm with this blue and long skirt with my uniform being tucked real high. This was when I look really plump and haggard. That was how I looked in primary-hood days. Just in case anyone was wondering where the heck I am, I'm standing at the third row, third person counting from my left. Please don't curse and swear at my picture, I know I look horrible back then.
I was really elated to see this picture. Though I lost contact with them, but after viewing this photo, the memories just flashed at times. The most vivid incident was when the whole class bullied this girl called Yi lin. The class would mock her of her actions. The class would prank her with lots of funny silly ideas. The most cruel comment that we insulted was calling her "Mummy girl". Back then, her Mum would fetch her to school, brought her back home, helped her carry her stuffs till Primary 6. Honesty speaking, I was involved in the bullies too. I used to loathe her in pre-school days. I'm really a rebellion girl in primary school days. I steal, bullied people. Last time young kids tend to have childish mindset, they think all these are cool. I had this thinking back then. But all these are past and parcel, as far as I concern, I have changed.

Back to latest days. School has been organising Adam's Khoo workshop for all the graduating classes for 3 consecutive long days, stating from 8am-9pm. The duration was long but all the skills and learning process were worthwhile. Never ever thought that many of us could actually sat down and listen to our trainers for 13 hours. Wow, it seemed unbelievable but truly believable (: Through this workshop, there are laughter, there are boredom, there are cries that stayed within it. Its really a thumb up programme, even my 10 toes would support that too. Three trainers taking turns to lead the 5Ns class. Its simply just that male trainers entertained more than female trainer. Amin & Gerald got the crowd going. Their humorous form of saying really get us vibrating. Their stories were indeed inspiring but also funny. Everybody laughed like how a handphone vibrate. However, Priscilla, the only female trainer inspired me to plan my goals well. There's really a long path ahead for me to walk, but of course I won't be walking alone. I will be walking together with my friends and family.
The most innocent experience was when Amin asked everyone to close their eyes. He wanted us to imagine many things. And there he goes saying a lot of things, prompting us with a lot of questions. Mother, father, results, goals, future, failure, success all were asked while our eyes were shut. Allowing us to self-reflect. And guess what? Everyone shed their tears, some were sobbing really loudly. Some had silent cries. Everybody turned out to be so depressed of their wrongdoing. The scene was really an innocent picture.
When it was the closing ceremony, parents came to listen to their talk. They did laugh and enjoy their talk. I bet many of them have learnt tips of handling their children. I learnt that too. When clock going to strikes 9.30pm. The call was given to us. The instructor said those who want to go up to the front and thanks their parents for bringing them up, please do so. Many of the people did convey their appreciation to their parents. Some people wiped. I admitted that I did too. I cried like as if someone had passed away. Many of our schoolmates were really brave enough. Their speech made me think of my wrongdoing. It flashed back the scene whereby I stole my Mum's money during preschool days. I was remorseful. I could not and will never forget my Mum's expression when she knew that I stole her money. It hurts a lot. Seriously a lot. I realised the importance of my Mum. It motivates me to study really hard and earn alot alot alot of money for her. I promised her one thing and I will mark my word.

Friends, another part of my life. Seriously, they are much more important than boyfriends. I will never give them up. My 7 and 5 years of friendship. It won't break us up. I dreamt of a nightmare weeks ago. I told my three-some of my nightmare on Friday. I could show a strong face in front of anybody. But when I get back home and face the 4 walls, many negative mind will be running through it. Some thoughts make me sleepless. Some thoughts make me feel worry. Mixture of feeling inside me. Weeks ago, I dreamt that the 4 of us went hiking. Its just like happy outings we usually have. So while climbing up the mountain, one of of the threesome slipped and roll off the mountain and cannot be found. Its really scary, a freaking nightmare. I don't like the feeling of losing the close friends I have. I treasured them a lot. However, that night I gained their warm hugs and sweet sentence. Never regret! ILY, not easy to express (:

From this workshop, its an opportunity. Its a wake up call. A desired to study really hard. As every choices has its own consequences. Every choices I have made, even if it fails, I will get back up and strive for success. Never get defeated until the day I die. I will also forgive and forget. Hatred don't make me feel happy, so what's the point of hating people? Those who had hurt me before, I will forgive and forget and ought to thank you for changing me to become a stronger person. A past will forever be a past. I have a great future of me to decide.
Lastly,
I love you to all my friends. families, humans before it is too late.
Ciao.

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